I'm losing faith in my ability to make people feel better
Drowning in my own worthlessness
People around me endlessly suffering
And I can do nothing to help
Not good enough.
I've worn this ring every single day since the day you gifted it to me.
The only times I take it off are to wash my hands or when I get in the shower.
Had I known that
With each time I removed it from my finger,
Another fight would break out between the two of you,
I would never have removed it.
I would rather it tarnish on my finger
In the form of my love being hurt because we're not together,
Than have you be in pain because of unrequited love.
If I had only known that I could save you
At the cost of a tarnished ring,
I would have.
I used to fly with the Wings you gave me;
So high, I never thought I'd come back down.
But you yanked those wings right off my back,
Tore them from me
And gave them to someone else,
The blood still wet and dripping from the feathers.
I flew so high,
So high that I fell miles trough the sky
Toward the cold, hard ground where I now lay,
Starving for the light of the sun to shine through the dense trees so I may again
Feel the warmth of day upon my skin.
But the clouds refuse,
Refuse even to shine on the trees that hide me from this world.
All is lost...
Bottled emotions eating away at my insides,
Ripping. Tearing. Leaving nowhere to hide.
Shreds of sanity slipping away,
Day after day.
Consuming. All that I once was,
Nearly lost.
And all for the high cost
Of love.
Unaffordable. Even the richest couldn't pay,
Couldn't make someone stay
And not betray
The trust that I put in you.
We were captivated by our lust
For even the simplest touch.
A light caress of your hand could bring me to my knees,
Have me begging "Please...
Please. Just hold me one more time.
Let me feel safe in your arms
While the bells chime
That you're mine,
Because all I want is you. Just you."
I want to fe
So many things I can't say to the
One I once told everything.
My feelings must remain hidden, lest they invoke
Guilt. Or Pain.
I don't want to cause either.
I just want to be happy again...
Happy with you.
But I shall keep my feelings hidden inside,
'Til the day things change for the better,
Or for the worse...
I pray the latter never happens,
For if it does,
These hidden feelings might
Break me beyond all healing...
Days filled with emptiness.
Of hours just sitting,
Staring,
Wondering,
And hating those thoughts.
So tired of hurting,
But never willing to let go.
Always hoping for the future.
Our future.
It's all I've ever wanted.
Just say we can still have it...
I don't want to be lonely anymore...
Please come back to me...
The memories we made this weekend will fill the emptiness inside of me at your absence...
The time spent together holding me to this place...
The withdrawal of losing you after having just had you,
Crushing in its intensity...
Your being here never really sank in, but your leaving hit me like a brick wall...
Few moments spent together,
Many months knowing, hoping for more,
Now on hold until further notice.
But I will wait, however long,
For the moment in which I can feel you in my arms again...
I'm losing faith in my ability to make people feel better
Drowning in my own worthlessness
People around me endlessly suffering
And I can do nothing to help
Not good enough.
I've worn this ring every single day since the day you gifted it to me.
The only times I take it off are to wash my hands or when I get in the shower.
Had I known that
With each time I removed it from my finger,
Another fight would break out between the two of you,
I would never have removed it.
I would rather it tarnish on my finger
In the form of my love being hurt because we're not together,
Than have you be in pain because of unrequited love.
If I had only known that I could save you
At the cost of a tarnished ring,
I would have.
I used to fly with the Wings you gave me;
So high, I never thought I'd come back down.
But you yanked those wings right off my back,
Tore them from me
And gave them to someone else,
The blood still wet and dripping from the feathers.
I flew so high,
So high that I fell miles trough the sky
Toward the cold, hard ground where I now lay,
Starving for the light of the sun to shine through the dense trees so I may again
Feel the warmth of day upon my skin.
But the clouds refuse,
Refuse even to shine on the trees that hide me from this world.
All is lost...
Bottled emotions eating away at my insides,
Ripping. Tearing. Leaving nowhere to hide.
Shreds of sanity slipping away,
Day after day.
Consuming. All that I once was,
Nearly lost.
And all for the high cost
Of love.
Unaffordable. Even the richest couldn't pay,
Couldn't make someone stay
And not betray
The trust that I put in you.
We were captivated by our lust
For even the simplest touch.
A light caress of your hand could bring me to my knees,
Have me begging "Please...
Please. Just hold me one more time.
Let me feel safe in your arms
While the bells chime
That you're mine,
Because all I want is you. Just you."
I want to fe
So many things I can't say to the
One I once told everything.
My feelings must remain hidden, lest they invoke
Guilt. Or Pain.
I don't want to cause either.
I just want to be happy again...
Happy with you.
But I shall keep my feelings hidden inside,
'Til the day things change for the better,
Or for the worse...
I pray the latter never happens,
For if it does,
These hidden feelings might
Break me beyond all healing...
Days filled with emptiness.
Of hours just sitting,
Staring,
Wondering,
And hating those thoughts.
So tired of hurting,
But never willing to let go.
Always hoping for the future.
Our future.
It's all I've ever wanted.
Just say we can still have it...
I don't want to be lonely anymore...
Please come back to me...
The memories we made this weekend will fill the emptiness inside of me at your absence...
The time spent together holding me to this place...
The withdrawal of losing you after having just had you,
Crushing in its intensity...
Your being here never really sank in, but your leaving hit me like a brick wall...
Few moments spent together,
Many months knowing, hoping for more,
Now on hold until further notice.
But I will wait, however long,
For the moment in which I can feel you in my arms again...
♥To every guy that said, "Sex CAN wait"
♥To every guy that said, "You're beautiful"
♥To every guy that was never too busy to drive across town to see her
♥To every guy that gives her flowers and a card when she is sick or down.
♥To every guy who has given her flowers just because thats how he rolls
♥To every guy that said he would die for her.
♥To every guy that really would.
♥To every guy that did what she wanted to die for
♥To every guy that cried in front of her...
♥To every guy that she cried in front of...
♥To every guy that holds hands with her.
♥To every